Thursday, September 29, 2005
My one and perhaps only HNT
I've always been a skinny guy. And while many would consider this a superior situation to being fat, the same kinds of comments are made, except when you're skinny, people will say them to your face. Things like "string bean", "cricket boy", "spaghetti arms" and the like.
True, I can pretty much eat my fill of whatever without gaining weight, and this fills some people with bitterness. But this is no reason for name calling.
Anyway, gay men are notoriously "package" oriented. Skinny and fat are both bad. So it was that I started working out back in my 20's trying to get that body to go with my face and other notable features.(wink) I bulked up, trained incessantly, crammed creatine and sundry other supplements and put some meat on my bones. The trouble was that I attracted the most superficial people. And I started to realize that the most avid bodybuilders were often the shallowest and most vapid. (and I believe, those with the lowest self-esteem)
Just watch, that drop dead gorgeous and super buff guy across the street is more likely to be checking his reflection out in the shop windows than noticing you on the other side of the street. When I see this, I think, "You look unbelievably beautiful, why do you keep checking yourself out?" The only logical conclusion is that they don't feel too secure about themselves.
So for the past few years, I have stopped trying to get bigger and content myself with the "swimmer's body" (which really means skinny but cute anyway) and maintain it. No more supplements now, just a healthy hour workout twice a week, hitting all the body parts. And I avoid seeing my reflection except in the morning getting ready.