I've been unusually happy lately. Not lottery winner happy, more like receiving a postcard in the mail happy. Just a general sunny disposition for several consecutive days. This is pretty rare for me in my adult life, though those who know me might disagree. I probably come off as sunshiney most of the time. It's a ruse though, I'm often faking it, which sometimes actually PUTS me in a good mood. Not enough sleep though? No way I can be in a good mood then. Anyway, in order to deal with my "smoking cessation depression", I started taking St John's Wort even though I'm unable to reliably take the recommended dosage. (And don't generally believe in medication, herbal or otherwise.) I have managed to take one pill with my vitamin each morning and after six weeks, it seems to be helping in generally elevating my mood. Since it's unusual for me to have a string of good mood days, I'm starting to think that that stuff is helping. That or the impending autumn, and it's promise of technicolor trees. Whatever it is, I'm enjoying the ride.
I believe I've finally plateaued with the weight gain. It hasn't fluctuated at all in the last couple weeks. I suppose my body has found its metabolic equilibrium again. I changed nothing about my eating habits. I still eat my three meals and have a little dessert after dinner. It's normal to gain weight once one quits smoking and I took on the average 10 lbs. Although I have no more hint of a six-pack, I am kind of enjoying this little pillow I've developed. It's weird, this little pillow, how it seems to magnify orgasms. Like the extra flesh adds extra area of pleasure. Anyway, I've actually grown to quite like my (admittedly minor) paunch.