Tuesday, August 07, 2007

A touch of blue

These last couple months have gone by so fast. All across the continent, teachers are dreading the approaching return-to-work date and I'm no exception. It makes me want to wring every possible drop of pleasure out of the remaining days. Screw what I was supposed to have accomplished. Vacation, by definition, excludes accomplishment. Still, I had wanted to write more, knit more, make more music and go someplace new. Funny how no matter how much we have given to us, we can always find a way to miss something or desire more. We crazy humans. What are you gonna do? I for one am remembering to be grateful and shushing that little "unfulfilled" voice. Sometimes I think the notion of fulfillment is absolutely attainable - as a simple choice. As long as basic human needs are met (food, water, shelter, social contact) contentment is right there waiting for us to grab it. It's so hard though sometimes. Even though I can intellectually justify being fulfilled, my heart sometimes aches nonetheless. It's that darned dread of going back to work that's mucking everything up, sigh.

17 comments:

Dantallion said...

I hear ya. And since we're stuck with the "having to work" part (barring a lottery win), there's no greater argument for making sure you choose a career that you absolutely love.

bardelf said...

You are so right, torn, it's just human nature to always think about/worry about the future. Wouldn't it be incredible to reach that zen place of just living in the moment ... simply 'being'?

Ed said...

Every day is a gift that is why it is called the present. That is one thing I've learned after all these years. Nancy Sinatra, daughter of Frank, sang a song called, "You only live twice." One life for yourself and one for your dreams.

vuboq said...

Ugh. I so remember the "back to school" dread. Hope you can make the most of your remaining vacation days! *smooch*

David said...

I'm feeling that dread most morning, these days. Not a good sign.

The Wisdom of Wislon said...

Funny how the thought of work makes anyone shudder:>) enjoy your remanding joyous days off.

Liked the gay pride vid, can't drag artists think of something new to wear???? :>)

GayProf said...

This is something that I have been think about a lot over the past couple of weeks. When we have more than the basics of our lives covered, how do we stop ourselves from longing for more?

Maurice said...

"Even though I can intellectually justify being fulfilled, my heart sometimes aches nonetheless."

Oh my... I can SO relate to that thought, it's scary. But then again, it's good to know I'm not alone.

Devo said...

Ah the quest. I relate, I think most do. At times, one can remember to live in each moment and appreciate them singularly but human nature drives us out of it. See, if you had kids, you'd be counting the days until school started in a cheerful manner, it's all relative isn't it? Have a fun day.

Rebekah said...

There's a quote from The Pearl, "The only thing that sets man apart from other animals is his inability to be satisfied." or something to that effect. It always is a great point for conversation when my students read it.

However, they feel like they are MADE to go back to school, whereas it's our livelihood.

talk soon, kay?

Chunks said...

I'm with Devo. I'm in countdown mode. You can tell it's August because I need my people away from me, in a classroom with someone else telling them what to do for six hours a day. Of course, two months into it, I will be longing to sleep in and whatnot so there ya have it. You can't please a human.

Lewis said...

And the snow can't be far behind that. (Just call me Mr. Positive Thinking here.....)

Snooze said...

I bought yarn today. I'm determined to take up knitting again and it's all because I was inspired by you. So do knit more - you are my muse.

Enemy of the Republic said...

Well, I worked all summer and I get a week off. If only I played the lottery, but I figure I could use that dollar for more coffee!

By the way, this is a lovely post.

Travis said...

In Wednesdays post you said something about money being short until you return to work next month. Don't teachers in Canada get their pay over a 12 month period even though you only work 9 months? They do here in Washington, as an option.

dawn said...

We are built to always want more. Dunno why. Not a bad thing, as it leads us to some great places. But sometimes it's good to just chill out in those places for a bit a appreciate being there.

Ahhhhh. Deep thoughts. Try not to weep.

Mark in DE said...

I experience a bit of the same thing... every Sunday evening.

Live in the moment and enjoy!

Mark